Attitude Adjustment

I have chronic pain from fibromyalgia.  It used to be called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and before that it was the Yuppy Flu.  It is a syndrome of a variety of symptoms that affect every system, from musculoskeletal to skin problems to gastrointestinal and neurological. Basically, it is always uncomfortable without treatment and treatment is temporary.

The recent weather fluctuations in New England have been rough, with highs and lows in barometric pressure and temperature shifts of thirty to forty degrees, in either direction, often well below freezing.  It has been really hard for people with inflammatory conditions.

Anti-inflammatory drugs can only be taken for short periods without serious consequences. Pain relievers have side effects, including over the counter drugs.

With discussions about rationing by Obamacare and legalized medical marijuana floating around, stirring up emotions, I have had a few, not very quiet talks with God.  I often pray in my car.  Does it make one a drug addict to take pain relievers?  Even over the counter medicines are drugs.  Obviously, there are stronger prescription drugs too. But, if I cannot carry out activities of daily living without some medicine, where is the line? Are drugs drugs? 

The most vociferous ride I’ve had for a while was the other day when I said, “Who wants my God?”  “If I am in pain all the time, depressed and wanting nothing more than to go to sleep and not wake up again.”

Then, I was reminded of a Scripture: My strength is made perfect in weakness. 2 Cor.12:9

I recalled a pilot talking about how the attitude of the plane controlled the altitude.  He said that it could be difficult to maintain the correct attitude during lift off and then you must retain and maintain the right attitude to fly and to stay on course.

Perhaps, the lesson is lost to some, but it was an epiphany to me.  

I was angry and depressed, spiraling into despair,  because relief was very temporary and often completely illusive, but there was much more to it.  I’ve had this condition as long as I can remember, more than the 25 years since I was diagnosed.  I have accomplished much, encouraged others, and lived well much of that time.  It was my attitude that made the difference in recent weeks.

 1.  I decided to receive each day as it comes.  I will manage the difficulties of pain and stiffness with diet, rest, supplements, exercise and medicine as I am able.  
2.  I decided to speak in more positive terms. I will say, I get to go to work instead of I have to work. 
3.  I decided to think about the things I can do and try not to think about all the things I want to do.  I will pray for those I cannot help.
4.  I decided to remember that my limitations are somewhat seasonal.  I will plan my calendar with lots of room for goals. 

I still believe that God loves us and wants the best for us.  Everyone has strengths and weaknesses.  Some people live without pain on a regular basis.  I am envious.  I wonder how much I could get done.  My strength is tested every day.  My resolve to stay on course is challenged.  My purpose is not in question though.  Attitude adjusted. 

When was your last attitude adjustment?